What cities?

Buying chocolate - tomorrow after my chem midterm. Cravings </3
Pass my ankle-taping test - By the end of the week.
Glasses - I’m not sure if my eyes are fatigued, or if I really do need glasses. Most likely the latter.
A new instrument - Splurgeee.
Signing apartment lease - I can’t wait to get out of this dorm.  
Surgery - Must set up ortho and final appointments by the end of this week.
Tattoo - save moolah. 
 

Puffy, sad eyes from taking over an hour to try and say bye to Melanie.

I’ve never really realized how much I am attached to wear I’m from until this school year. I love the bay area. I love being with family and friends. There’s nothing more comforting than knowing my loved ones are only 15 minutes away, the nearest pho place is less than 5 minutes away, and the homemade vietnamese-chinese-japanese fusion food is right downstairs. 

Back to uncomfortable reality.

Sucking it up. Lehgo.

I’ve been told by a close friend that all I do is talk about me, myself, and I. My life and my problems. Told that I never ask about him, talk to him about his problems, that I take him for granted. That I’m selfish. 

Since then, which was only about a year ago, I try to limit the number of times that I’m allowed to vent to a certain person. However, I break some my venting rules every once in awhile, like now, or when I know I can trust someone. I want to talk. Even so, I fear that I’m establishing myself as a selfish, childish, whiny, melodramatic brat.

Maybe the stress is starting to kick. Finals, fear of failing calculus, internship, not fitting in here, being a loner, long distance relationships, my hopes, my wants, and very much wishful thinking.

A spot opened up for my jaw surgery! Unfortunately, it’s a week before I have to go back to school. Recovery time goes something like this : 

two weeks after surgery: Mouth wired shut. Liquid only diet. Swelling. 

next two weeks : strict mashed potatoes and mush diet. Swelling. 

next two weeks : strict super soft foods diet. Slight swelling. 

There on out : soft foods, soft foods, soft foods. 

6-8~ months from then : No more braces, underbite and perfect teeth. :3

Waiting for a call from the surgeon to see if it’s a no-go. I hope someone cancels in December so I can take their spot.  

My older sister called me today and told me that I don’t go out, socialize, and party enough. Well then, Dr. 

Turned on work-mode for the past week. Research paper, midterms, lab reports, and intership to conquer this week by Thursday. Then, up to the bay area to celebrate left/right boob/@anngail ‘s birthday. As well as spending much needed, quality time with bub. Clubbing….?

Excited~~~~~~

Birthday and Halloween night was spent doing homework. Next on the agenda: Pillow talk with bub and 8 hours of sleep? Good plan. NIGHT.

I’m sorry that I don’t understand. I don’t say those words to annoy you. I want to know what you’re thinking, contemplating. I want to know how to fix our problems, find solutions together.

We’re still not in agreement. I don’t know what you want me to do. 

I love you, and I trust you completely. You know that. Everyone knows that.  I can’t handle this insecurity you have about being in a relationship with a girl. You’re not getting walked over. People respect our relationship and our love. Whether you are a boy or a girl, it doesn’t matter. I will tell them to stop, and I won’t put up with those comments that have the slight connotation of any advancements. 

You might not trust these other people, but do you trust me? Do you believe that I’m telling the truth?

SHUT UP. STOP SCREAMING. STFU. WHY DO YOU HAVE MEGAPHONES. 

One week into fall quarter and things are starting to feel hectic. I’ve applied to numerous on-campus jobs and internships. If I manage to get into the Student Athletic Training internship, I’ll probably pick that over anything else. Intramural basketball is going to get going soon too, and I’m super excited for that :D The first meeting for QAPI (Queer Asian and Pacific Islanders) is this Friday, and I’m hoping it’ll be something I might like. 

Full load tomorrow with calculus, chemistry tutoring, enviromental studies lecture and section. D:

Send me care packages :P